In th box of love.

Flick flick, flutter by.

2008-02-24T03:10:00.001+08:00

SHIFTED.

PLEASE RELINK ME !

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Hello, I can't find my specs.

2008-02-20T11:15:00.004+08:00

I'm up very early for once. It's alr a Wednesday, not much time left for studying. Bad flu this week almost made me go down with a fever. I can't concentrate well.

My mum nd I had an arguement on Sunday. Was on th verge of breaking down. I could move out of th home if I wanted to. Went out to do my revision instead, nd ended up over at Warren's place in th evening for dinner with them.

Supposed to find CK for study session in school, but I overslept (lol !). So like, stayed home having dinner nd met Warren after that, off to find Yati nd Shir for valentine's day gifts (:

Thnks to th pretty one for th icing cupcake ! Surprise surprise.

& I'm so glad Shir likes her big big rose :D

Yesterday afternoon was out for lunch with boyf at Ikea. Left to meet up with Jingyi nd Amilia at Hougang's Cafe Cartel. Had an oreo cheesecake, such sweet stuff ! & yes, I really fancy cheesecakes (:

So basically al I did was just read up my lecture notes nd cleared some doubts for Business Acc. Dinner at Kovan's Xinwang HK Cafe. Took a bus ride home after having our food nd laughters.

Going out to meet him ltr. Eat. nd. eat. nd. eat. such. a. sinful. routine. I think I need to resume my exercise asap.

Only 'cause it shows.

2008-02-16T23:16:00.006+08:00

Tears rolled down. It wouldn't stop. Heart feeling empty. Mind needs to rest. Says too much indulging. Was enjoying daddy's cooked food, but I can't find my appetite now.

Shouldn't expect so much. There's a limit to what a guy can give in, I suppose.

Nobody would really be here for me, 24/7. This I've realised. No more thoughts that he'd rush over to be here for me, like I would to others. I think I'm like th only one who'd be so silly to care so much uh ? They need to sleep that's why. So I'll to rely on myself again.

Sorry, my dear boy.

I'm someone with few words. I find it hard to express myself by talking it out. I think you forgot about that.

I hate you insulting me (be it directly or indirectly) or hurling vulgarities when I'm with you. Nd those times you raise your voice or smth. Well, you'd say it's because I made you frustrated, then maybe you shouldn't make empty promises.

Saying that I don't understand you hurts me, fyi. I do try, like how you'll always try to please me. You're not th only one tired physically nd mentally.

I don't want any grudge. I'm saying al these without any agitations. I'm just. Upset.

I. hate. me. why. that's. nice.

Being loved makes my heart tingle.

2008-02-15T20:39:00.011+08:00

Two days before, cabbed down at 1.40am, headed to th top deck of th multi-storey carpark. Whoaa. So very cold breeze in th early morning. Took me time to fix up everything that is needed. Pretty contented with it.

Warren was alr asleep so I had to call to wake him up. I knew it would be an almost-perfect view from his living room's window. Somehow th candles wouldn't light up though ): So sorry hunn.

Still, we had our little supper up there, sushis nd salmon sashimi bought from a nice uncle (: I hope you really liked th surprise, my dear.

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY, XOXO !

Being late for tutorial on this day, looking like an eejit all messed up while carrying paper bags of gifts. It was so last minute uh.

Took pictures with th girls after class ! Jingyi gave me a really nice letter. Meixin, Xinying nd Waany were so sweet to give me candies nd chocolates :D & thnks to huiying for th big red rose !

Boyf came to pick me up from school. Cabbed to town area, had high tea buffet at this Japanese restaurant.

Caught 'Ps. I love you' at Th Cathay. So glad he booked it early (: Th theatre was really filled ! Anyway, th storyline was a little different from th book (which personally is much preferred), but it's seriously bittersweet.

Then we walked to Heeren to take prints that I've requested for as well. After which we cabbed down to Harbourfront, bought some junkfood as well as Coffee Bean's cheesecake (love) nd headed to SENTOSA !

Well, boyf brought a mat for our little night picnic, nd another surprise surprise. 'I heart you' sprayed on it :D

So like we spent our time together enjoying th sea breeze, sweet heartfelt talks nd th exciting part ! Receiving my valentine's gift. Hahaha.

It was seriously unexpected, nd I was really stunned. Overjoyed. Emotional. Tears. Said it was to keep me busy while he'll be away for th two years.

Called for a cab nd reached home at about 1.45am. Stayed over because we were both tired alr.

Thnk you Warren, for th date, beautiful roses, pretty cardigan nd DS Lite ! So much you've given in to make me realise that you're able to make valentine's day special for me. Thnk you, not only for being my valentine, but also my lover, nd I wish you were my bestfriend. I'm so touched (:

Valentine's day list.

2008-02-13T12:29:00.006+08:00

1. ~~Have a date.~~
2. ~~Someone to tell me, 'Be my valentine'.~~
3. ~~Dine at th Jewel Box or perhaps, some fancy place.~~
4. ~~Take lots of snapshots nd prints.~~
5. ~~A bouquet of roses.~~
6. ~~Godiva dark chocolates.~~
7. ~~Surprises.~~
8. One carat diamond necklace.
9. ~~That big red toy rose.~~
10. Soft teddy bears.
11. ~~Pretty gifts.~~
12. ~~Maybe a DS Lite ? (Hahaha.)~~
13. Dresses.
14. Th Little Black Dress series of books.
15. ~~Warm wishes from friends.~~
16. ~~Many hugs nd kisses.~~

There's smth else I wished I could have as well, but some might laugh at me for being silly. I suppose I can't ask for more than love. It will just be kept a secret then.

GODIVA !

xoxo.

Let's hide a secret.

2008-02-12T23:46:00.001+08:00

Back home.

I think I hate myself today. Perhaps even some other days before as well. Finding myself getting emotional al over again. Maybe I've to learn to be a little more confidant. Maybe I need a little more affection.

My heart's tormenting me. Having to breathe harder than before to know that my heart's still beating, at some point not to stop. Difficulty handling emotions. Eyes welling up with burning, hot tears. Those tears I've been controlling, wouldn't want to let them fall. It's hard, but I don't want to see myself in such misery yet again. I feel so vulnerable.

I promised you I won't keep ranting on about what's passe, but you're making me tell you everything on my mind. Such contradiction. So confusing. I'll stare right at you. Or I'll look away. But that doesn't mean I'm ignoring you. It's avoidance to not hurt myself once more.

Valentine's day is down two. Spending an amount of moolahs on gifts for friends nd him. Hunn says he never celebrated valentine's with any girls previously, but I'm doubtful. Even so, I would like to make this it a special one for him, such that it'll be th sweetest. If everything works out that is.

Somehow. Th truth will always hurt. I'm frustrated nd depressed.

But like, who's going to even bother ? Fuck it, Natalie. Get over it.

Lunar events.

2008-02-11T21:23:00.002+08:00

CNY is getting worse by th year, no surprises to it. Except that I've got my boyf nd friends to celebrate with (:

CNY Eve - Steamboat in th night at home with famm, ate so very much !

Chu yi - With Warren nd his famm, visiting his relatives. Lao-ing yusheng was so messy, cards gambling was amusing. Lollll.

Chu er - Over at grandparents' house in Tiong Bahru for lunch. Daddy's cooking is delicious, I love his ko-lo-yok (sweet&sour meat) !

Chu san - Date was last minute cancelled. Met up with my favourite girl for shopping in th afternoon. Bought tops from Topshop nd Cotton On.

Then trained down to Raffles Place for KTV session till 11pm ! Woahwoahwoah :D

My inability to sing well, unlike them, got me a little emotional at that time. But Syy told me to practise more often, that I'll take note of. Haha.

Anyway, we ordered pizzas for dinner. It was seriously good stuff.

Chu si - Sunday late morning to church. Met Warren nd his famm after that, had our lunch at his relative's place. There was wanton mee, dumpling soup nd swedish meatballs. Yummy yums.

Went over to Johor Bahru to visit his uncle's famm for buffet dinner. Such a big bungalow house, I would love to live in one of those too. I got to see fireworks nd firecrackers at their place ! (:

Beautiful yet frightening because of th close distance. Hahaha.

PICTURES WILL BE UPDATED ANOTHER TIME.

People rushing craze.

2008-02-06T20:12:00.000+08:00

I did my last minute shopping these two days ! Such a rush.

Yesterday at Bugis, falsies nd earrings :D
Today to Tampines, Gripz heels nd Mondo pumps.
As well as th pink boyf shirt from Th Box that I've been eyeing on !
Impulsive shopping ? Idk.

Spent too much alr. Still.

Thnk you mr boyf (:

Dad's cigarette smoke is blowing at my direction ):
I'm a heavy passive.

Anyway.
HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR TO AL !
Gong hei fat choyyyy !

Out to see Warren nd his famm tmr.

Lunch at grandparents' place on Friday.
Saturday prolly with Syy nd others ? (need to text Jaslyn nd Shir)
& then KTV till 11pm, by myself ! No snatching of mics, hehehehh.

Reunion dinner ltr tonight, grandparents are coming over.
We used to eat out at some restaurant.
But this time round mummy's having difficulty going out.
Steamboat at home is still alright I suppose.
It's th family gathered together that matters th most.

I'll update more after cny then.

xoxo.

Because I find myself standing next to you.

2008-02-05T23:56:00.000+08:00

HAPPY 8TH MTH, MY BOY (:

Thnk you for everything, really.
Even though we couldn't spend much time together on this special day like we used to, I know I still have your love.

& P.s, I absolutely adore my valentine's day gift you got me !

It's more than a merry-go-round.

2008-02-03T21:15:00.000+08:00

Random meetups after 4am due to another sleepless night.
Soooo. Vrroom.
Yes, it's been eons ago. But I still had this excitement.

Having th so very cold wind blown directly.

Hair messed up nd it makes you laugh.
As if there's no frustrations or worries to think about. You'll feel so, free.

Except for th fact that you'll think about falling off or smth.
To put your life at some on-hold risk.

Passing traffic lights nd cars, stopping by for my B&J nd milo.
&& when there are flames fuming out of th exhaust pipe. Such cheap thrill.
Wishing that time hadn't past so fast but to no avail.
Nd you'll find yourself wanting more.

Like, how about getting a bike too ? Or, even a car ?

Thnk you for th ride out, it made my night much better.

I was too hyped up to sleep till about 8. Hahaha (:

Let's go floral, babe.

2008-02-03T20:36:00.000+08:00

At Tanah Merah Kechil Ave, Katong's.

Everytime I would pass by it nd never got a chance to view inside, till now. Why oh why, such beautifullll flowers !

Moolahs are such killjoys.

2008-02-02T17:17:00.000+08:00

Personal entry.

I've been noticing sprees on el-jays.

There's like Forever21 clothes, falsies nd dresses. Very tempted.
Even sales at town nd at Bugis.
Pretty stuffs like floral prints, bright colours nd al.

They say, "That's so Natalie !" or "That's so you."

But.

Somehow I don't have th moneyyyy. Thus a mood. A feeling. Depressed.

Having thoughts of being high maintenence sounds pretty interesting. I must invest in myself from 24th on.
More clothes. More shoes. More accessories. More shopping.

I. SO. NEED. CASH. &. TIME. TO. SATISFY. PLEASURE.

Even my bed cover is hinting to me with those words nd designs.
Says, "shop.. shop.. shop". Hahaha.

Oh my gawdddd it's alr feb.

2008-02-02T16:30:00.000+08:00

On a lighter note.

Scythia dinner on Monday. Met at th mushroom to wait for th others, noticed changes. Ivan nd Alex were so engrossed in CLEO, they asked me what's cookie. Lollll. So like some of us had Ljs takeaways to eat at th open area.

If it weren't for th security guard who chased us away, we'll prolly be there till late nd saying out cheers like we used to. Haha. But I enjoyed meeting them Scythians again (:

As I recalled. Wasn't in th right state of mind on Tuesday morning. Warren dated me out to Bugis in th evening. Bought myself a pair of pretty earrings at Diva, nd he got me a top I like from FF too ! Said that I'd have to wear it with him on CNY -delighted.

Had dinner at Pastamania (note: where we had our first date). Bought my dear mummy her dinner as well, ToriQ's bento set. Went to visit her at SGH. So like, she's doing fine I suppose. Warren's thoughtful sunflower would brighten up her days aye ? Haha. I'm glad he insisted on seeing her.

Stayed for an hour or so, trained back home. Boyfriend is a sweet guy, nd I love his hugs (:

Yet sometimes he really can be mean nd retarhded, be it his words or his behavior. Nd that we'll be like quarrelling almost everyday. Haha. Even so, I still love you.

Stay heart stay.

2008-02-01T13:33:00.000+08:00

Sometimes my mind just think of random thoughts about them. It's really hard to talk about it. Insomnia till I've watched th Ellen show. Then tossing nd turning to sleep.

She tells herself don't get emotional. Even though everything is getting depressing. She's stopped her tracks while everyone else is still moving on. Why. can't. they. wait. for. me.

Perhaps because I'm always turning back. Pointless.

Maybe I should make some poem, song or lullaby. It goes like, "Stay, heart, stay. We've got each other so don't go away. & never to let go."

Heart, please don't let your guards down.

CXX & NL & KY & AT.

2008-01-31T18:31:00.000+08:00

Hello. Haven't you strangers realise th countless times I've been ignoring those msn convos ?
I'm never going to be so naive nd gullible for i-don't-know-how-many-times alr.
Asling me if I'm open-minded ?

Fyi. I find no pleasure in those chats, thnk you.

Elizabeth or Nat Lee (whichever your preference).

I don't know who you are, my dear.
Stop it with those hi nd what-have-yous.
Girly talks about shopping nd sex ? How orgasmic -sarcastic.
I don't need you telling me about your excitements.

Be glad I have yet to figure out how to block your emails after deleting.
So annoying.

Pink th proj mode.

2008-01-30T21:10:00.000+08:00

Back to school even on Sundays. Made do with th time we have to finish up OB presentation/skit. What's with emo as th topic anyway. Sheesh. Girls are really nice, thnk you Huiying for Subway ! (:

So we're left with Marketing proj that is due. Last minute rushing through everything. I admit I didn't do much on my part though. How awful.
Hen dui bu qi !

Nd now I'm like troubled with th CDS proj, somehow seems to be like an individual assignment. Having schedules which clashes, nd no one wants to meet up. Asking for ideas or contributions, not much to none. Frustrations, get it ?

They tell me to wait for th peer evaluation or smth. Watch me.

Class only for an hour tmr. What is this, goodness.

Thnk you for CLEO, sister.

2008-01-26T14:58:00.000+08:00

Screw Business accounting test. Late night cycling with Warren nd had my supper at th 24hour ! I almost cried without any dinner. Silly right.

My mum's staying in th hospital ): We're going to see her ltr, nd then to my aunt's funeral.

CNY in less than two weeks or so.
Gong xi fa cai.
There's nothing much to it.

& Valentine's day for th sweethearts nd romantics.
I still love those secondary school days.

A date for th night with a pretty bouquet.
Champagne red roses nd a little card.
Says, be my valentine ? I'll be yours. xoxo.
Candlelight dinner at a fancy restaurant.
Let me think, th jewel box ?
& many snapshots nd kisses.

Al that was part of my wishful thinking.
Seems nice though (:

It's funny how I remembered last year's.
Classic.
My ex-boyf isn't into such stuff. Oh boy.

Maybe I'll just get Godiva dark chocolates for myself.
Such sweet sinful indulgence.

If you hadn't known much.

2008-01-26T11:24:00.000+08:00

Natalie Erika Lai Yu Wen. Yes, that's my name.

I'm going to be eighteen on th 24th October ! & I can't wait -grins.
Other than more problems nd extra school subjs.
It's like th phase for clubbing nd pubbing with my girls, if that interest you.
Th thoughts of sexy alcoholic drinks excites me.

Anyway, I'm studying in Tp for Diploma in Business.
That's not my forte at al. Getting awful results most of th time.
Supposedly had a passion for Design instead.
Music. Arts. Dance. But I think it al died down alr.

Urhm my email's pretty long. I've been wanting to change it though.
I've had many previous blogs before, didn't seem to last.
This one is pretty neat enough, seriously.
Not too much of emotional or senseless stuff.
No more annoying twitty talks, no more spammers (at least for now).
& I've even included applications like th tagboard nd message box.
Yet I don't see why people read nd don't leave me a text or smth.

Basically, I'm pretty nice.
I'm th girl who doesn't like to talk much.
But that doesn't mean I'm always quiet.
It depends on my mood nd th friends I'm with.

I can't relate myself to chingchong cheenas.
Even though they might be nice people too.
Perhaps if they could communicate in a more civilised manner.
I would change my perception.

No matter whether you're my friend or a stranger.
I'll prolly only smile at you if you look at my direction nd do th same.

I think that I've got hot hair.

I know my friends would say yes too !
That's like randomly th part of myself that I like.
Because it's not like I've got th perfect body.
Not so much of a pretty face either.
A note to take though, there are many pretty girls.
Many with not so pretty personality.

Being in an al girls' school for th past ten years.
It's like a barrier from knowing th opposite sex. Not saying it's a bad thing.
I admit that I used to somehow swoon over girls.
Because they are so hot. Hot stuff I tell you. Hahaha.
Fyi, I am not confused. It's just a phase, thnk you.

I can't decipher what guys always think.
Girls ? Friends ? Love ? Sex ? Games ? Laughs ?
& I personally hate them liars or jerks.
Maybe th generation has gone too fast.
Or perhaps its just me.

I don't have a bestfriend.
That's like smth which always brings me down.
So I'd rather keep to myself at times.
Rantings in my mind or in my blog.
&& I have tonnes of secrets. Who doesn't ? (;

I don't understand cash flow statements, sheesh.

2008-01-24T17:01:00.000+08:00

School on Thursdays are always less than two hours (except for those with their CDS). That's why I'm home so fast, in th midst of tidying up my stuff nd al. Chilli tapioca chips is th chewy crisp yo ! Thnk you Warren.

Anyway, Business accounting test tmr in th late evening. I don't like it, nd I most prolly won't study till tmr's 5 hour break ):

Other than that, Macroeconomics presentation yesterday. Some of my classmates who makes me laugh nd smile without fail (:

Xueting, please do take care alrights. We're very much concerned.

She's th love lullaby.

2008-01-20T23:56:00.000+08:00

Idk why ? But I've been thinking of this particular girl. She has been a close friend for years, someone that I can trust, confide nd talk to easily. She used to be th girl who would always have late night suppers with me, so randomly. She nd I love th sun, love th beach nd love going for a tan. She's th one whom I won't want to distant despite being in different schools.

Hello Jaslyn, how are you ? Just had to let you know that you're much missed.

Stayed home yesterday, did some chores with my mum. Went over to get Warren from his work last night, we were both so tired. Physically nd mentally I suppose. I was still hungry after that so I left nd went over to 24hours for my noodles. It was somehow horrible ):

Project this afternoon in school till 4.30pm or so, then headed to Tampines mall to find my favourite girl after making her wait for an hour (so sorry !) nd we ate at Macs. Girl talks.

Took a few snapshots. We like :D

Went to th foodcourt to get her dinner before waiting for her bus (Shir, how could you give your mum such horrible food ! Lollll.) Funny stuff luh. I'm contented we got to meet up today, nd she even sang for me part of a chinese song. It's like my message tone now yanno. Haha.

Trained down to town to find Warren again, he told me he really appreciated it. But sort of upsetting for me, because it's like an effort not needed. Suppose so, I won't be so silly next time.

Got to continue with some project work now. Even though exam results isn't appealing at al, getting mostly Ds. School tomorrow morning, I cannot afford to be late again nd get my debarment. It's that bad.

Say hello to donutfact junkfood.

2008-01-18T23:45:00.000+08:00

Talking to Shir on th phone just now. Silly rantings. I miss her like oh so much, nd she'd better tell me that too ! Hahaha. We haven't had a date for like months alr. It's smth upsetting, but I understand that we're al very busy with school nd other friends uh ? (:

Silly her has been stressed out from studies, but I know she can do it. But that isn't an excuse to be skipping your meals, sweets.

Well, just to let you know, Shir. You'll always be my favourite girl. Call me up as nd when you need someone to talk to okay ! Makes me smile nd glad to know I'm significant enough, seriously. I'll make sure I'd be there for you if you need me.

&& Tartsy, you kept telling me you miss me. But when are we ever going out for dinner again ! Haha.

TGIF ! Even though I missed out lectures again (it's like my resolutions don't seem to work out ?). Anyway, proj discussion today is still alright. Takeaways from th Tampines mall nd whitesands for lunch/dinner.

It's me, sorry, I admit I wanted th best of th two.

Which I know, it can never happen.

Munching now, goodbye.

518 express bus can really make me doze off.

2008-01-16T01:24:00.000+08:00

Back home from Suntec City. Light dinner at Carl's Jnr with Warren. Bought some junkfood nd caught 'American Gangster', not too bad a M18 movie, nd th theatre was barely taken up. Pretty much exposed to naked women handling drugs, how sexy is that ! Hurr.

Went to school in th afternoon, skipped two lectures again today. Unable to catch up with th rest in studies. (No more excuses, Natalie.) But hogging th printer in th lab is like some self-acheivement, lollll. I've printed al of my OB notes. Hahaha.

Anyway, Warren came down to find me after his work, nd surprised me with smth sweet like candy (:

& did I mention, it does taste like rose !

Alright, th three days of open house was really worth those LOAs. Haha ! Lots of fun nd laughter with th girls nd al.

Being tour guides, we get to bring those students to different rooms nd lecture theatre for talks. Lt 19's my favourite because th skit is hilarious :D Tiara Banks as th drag queen, Ms Shakuntala & th hott CCM guy ! Lol.

& onboard th tourism showcase room through th security check (guy went, "deh deh deh" haha !), they gave out silly passports which amused me. Also, you can actually smell th aroma of baked cookies which were being served by another (cute) CCM guy, haha. Those crunchy cookies tempted me. Purrfect for a small bite !

Th mediabiz was pretty interesting too. Have yet to step into th studio before, nd that was my first ! So like everything seems so dope. Pardon my sillyness.

Managed to do th mass dance nd al on Saturday at th concourse together ! :D Credits to Maybelle for such nice snapshots. Haha.

&& Jam&Hop was so se-se-sexyyyy ! We were al being crazy grooving to th music nd getting high hahaha. My girlfriend is hot on th dancefloor (;

That should be about it. I would love to have more of such.

Caught in his smiles.

2008-01-13T16:59:00.000+08:00

I've been awake for a while now
You got me feeling like a child now
'Cause every time I see your bubbly face
I get the tinglies in a silly place

It starts in my toes
And I crinkle my nose
Wherever it goes
I always know
That you make me smile
Please stay for a while now
Just take your time
Wherever you go

The rain is falling on my window pane
But we are hiding in a safer place
Under covers staying safe and warm
You give me feelings that I adore

It starts in my toes
Make me crinkle my nose
Wherever it goes
I always know
That you make me smile
Please stay for a while now
Just take your time
Wherever you go

What am I going to say
When you make me feel this way
I just mmmmm

And it starts in my toes
Makes me crinkle my nose
Wherever it goes
I always know
That you make me smile
Please stay for a while now
Just take your time
Wherever you go

I've been asleep for a while now
You tuck me in just like a child now
'Cause every time you hold me in your arms
I'm comfortable enough to feel your warmth

And it starts in my soul
And I lose all control
When you kiss my nose
The feeling shows
'cause you make me smile baby
Just take your time now
Holdin' me tight

Wherever wherever wherever you go
Wherever wherever wherever you go

Wherever you go
I always know
'Cause you make me smile
Even just for a while

Colbie Caillat – Bubbly

Macs, I'm going to have you for my breakfast ltr.

2008-01-12T06:11:00.000+08:00

Last few hours for TEEPEE'S OPEN HOUSE today ! Can't wait for tonight's Jam&Hop with th girls as well. Next entry will most prolly be filled with snapshots for this three days (:

Pretty much tired, haven't had enough rest last night. Came home after midnight, slept at around 1.30am nd woke up just now at 4.14am. Tell me about it.

Barbara was still online as well so we were just chatting over msn. Didn't think I won't be able to fall back to sleep after that ):

So here I am, chatting to another random guy (annoying to some extent) nd going to do some stick-ons for ltr nd get my hot bath soon :D Hahaha.

On a random note, it's been some time since I've had breakfast cravings. Anyone ?

P.s Warren got a job that is to his liking alr, nd I'm very glad for him ! But he'd better not forget to text me nd al uh. Don't let other girls hanky panky with you alright ! Lol.

Lovelove.

How those waiting chairs made us look like hookers.

2008-01-10T22:06:00.000+08:00

It's been a rather listless week or so, haven't done a proper update till now.

School will be hectic one for this two months, datelines for projects nd presentations following up one after another. Last minute work is horrible ):

LOAs nd MCs making me miss tutorial classes nd lectures. Good thing my mum gave me a new stack of printing paper. So I'll most likely get down to school to hog th computer nd printer ! :D

I so hate those green irky pills nd tablets I've been gulping down, nd especially so for that brown medicine with terrible smell. Acupuncture gave me a fright. Seeing a Chinese doctor two times is really costly uh !

Another downside is that, Natalie can never be on time for proj meetings or school stuff. Seriously.

Except for that day I had my first tutorial after th break (cabbed down of course). Samuel was very nice to initiate a hello to me, because th other few who came slightly earlier just couldn't be bothered to converse.

& lunch over at Engineering school, western food (fries changed to pasta) with th usuals.

Oh yes, Sakae treat from mummy two days ago ! Delighted, but only to an extent. Bickerings with my sister, not being able to eat fried food or seafood, (no salmon karaages ?), nd al Warren did was look at th food belt or laugh. Nice one.

So like, boyfriend stayed over because there's a heavy downpour throughout th night. We watched 'Secret' again (: Really fancy th vintage CD song they played in th movie, it's one of my favourite.

I so love such sweet high school romance ! Jay chou ? -swoons. A pity I didn't have one like that. Perhaps Warren does, a few pretty ones uh. Haha alright, no more sarcasm.

We had a quarrel yesterday night, which was pretty awful. I wish he didn't say such hurtful words, or at least don't just walk me home mid-way. Why so nice ? (Hahaha, another sarcastic remark.)

Everything's alright now, being way over-sensitive last night was my part to blame for. But today was obviously his wrong, no doubt about that.

Hunn, making you wait for me isn't my fault. I have my commitments for school just like you'll have for work. Nd I do appreciate it that you're willing to find me nd al. A guy being nice to share his junkfood with me doesn't mean that we're flirting. Taking glances at guys or eyecandies doesn't mean I want to be with them. Otherwise, so will talking with others considered th same. You just didn't realise you're th one that makes me have insecurities al over again. I think I've explained more in person alr, but there's more which you'd get tired of being reminded. I need assurance, but it didn't mean I wanted you to delete your friendster account or give promises that we won't know of until a later future, silly boy. Said you'll wait for whatever it takes for me to get over your past with them girls, so give me time nd a shoulder to lean on, you should know. This few weeks have been very dramatic, nd our relationship's awkward nd shaky. Maybe we need to talk more like you asked me to, nd both of us just needs to give in a little more. I still love you, in situations random or not.

Alright, TEEPEE'S OPEN HOUSE TODAY, TMR, & SATURDAY ! :D

Business school has such nice crowd-warmers nd tour guides. So don't be shy to ask for help from al of us. Hahaha.

Meet Bling, Bangs nd Boing. You'll definitely love us (: Tralala.

My heart, my soul.

2008-01-08T01:41:00.000+08:00

Babe, I'm sorry I sent a 'forgot password' in blogger, went into your e-mail, went into google and changed your password. All so I could post this on your beautiful blog. d: Forgive me okay? I just wanted to do this myself without you knowing.

So anyway, here goes.

My Heart, My Soul

We were sitting, by the beach,
as I slowly start to reach,
behind your back, my arms around,
your voice to my ears, oh such sweet sound.

We talk and laugh like never before,
I think I'm getting quite a score!
I look into your eyes as you look back,
my heart flutters and I start to know,
that you my love, are mine, for sho.

I start to think deep in my soul,
if we can last or am I too bold?
For this question will affect our lives,
this, I had to realize.

Beneath the moon, we talk and talk,
my heart is racing, against the clock.
Soon we will have to leave,
if I don't ask, I know I'll grieve.

So I take the risk and I start to ask,
if, my love, would we ever last?
"Will you be my girlfriend", I whisper to you,
slowly my heart, fades to blue.

For her answer, is taking too long,
I am afraid, that what I asked was wrong.
But slowly, I see a spark in her eye,
I ask her what? as she looks into the sky.

She looks back, then nods her head.
YES she says! Oh how my heart was dead.
But now its bright, bright bright red.
Filled with happiness and much love,
even the stars shine, way above.

I hug and kiss her in delight,
as she smiles with such sweet fright.
And now it has been, more than seven months,
oh how I would really like to dance.
Because what I say is true,
my love for you, will never turn blue.

It is only you, that can make me smile,
make me wild and make my child.
We will marry, this I swear,
for you are the one, this I declare.
Not one single soul on this forsaken earth,
can take me away, from you, my love.

p.s. You're my heart, my love, my life, my whole. (:

To: Natalie Lai
Written on: 8th January 2008
From: Warren Yap

I know its not the best thing you've read, ever. But the point of all this, is just to let you know, I love you. (:

p.s.s. This looks nicer in Firefox. Or maybe its just my IE.

Hush, be quiet nd stay.

2008-01-06T00:40:00.000+08:00

Hunn, I really didn't mean that I wanted to die, you know don't you.
Can I please take back those words ?

I'm scared.

I'll take my medicines nd cream whenever needed.
I promise to smile as well, no matter what.

All I'd ask from you is to be there for me. Help me stop th tears, okay ?
I love you.

Dear God, I would like to get well soon.
Asap, if that's not asking too much from you.
Amen.

Playing against time.

2008-01-03T21:11:00.000+08:00

HAPPY 2008 DARLINGS, CHEERS !

Well, there isn't much to say about it. Th new year didn't start with a bang, anyway. I wasn't in th mood to stay up. No countdowns at th Esplanade. No viewing of fireworks. No friends to party with.

Why so nice ? Uhrm. To help with a little smile, I've grabbed a snapshot. Lol ! Pretty shimmers uh.

So like, went over to Warren's place to have dinner with his family nd relatives that day. Stayed over till next morning before going to th temple with my famm in th late afternoon to pray to my maternal grandparents.

Was supposed to be in school for proj nd tutorials on Wednesday, but I went to th polyclinic, which made me two hours late from th meeting time. Anyway, th doctor happens to be th same one that I saw th previous occasion (doubt she even remembers).

She said that my skin's affected or smth that can be spread (making it sound serious nd al), so I would have to avoid contact with others, nd put th cream I bought. Th medical fees cost me okay, sheesh.

& whatttt, I have three days of MC nd I'd have to go back there on Saturday ):

Oh my my. Natalie's ruined her first week of school. Poof.

Warren has been a really thoughtful boyfriend, trying to take good care of me. Hahaha. He makes delicious pastas nd omelettes yanno. Or else I'd buy him food so we could eat together. Had some cold talks this few days, but it's alright now.

Somehow, I think I'll make it for proj meeting tmr, will have a hard time catching up though.

Dusty delights.

2007-12-30T22:58:00.000+08:00

Warren went fishing with Faliq at th jetty yesterday afternoon. I was anticipating to go, but th rain put me down. So like I met them after that at th void deck. Got a fright when they flinged smth at me, I thought it was some fat lizard ! Haha. Turned out to be a toy dinosaur. Sheesh.

Spent time over at boyfriend's house, slept till next morning nd went to help dad buy newspapers nd get takeaways for my breakfast (: I like Mac's.

Room's in a mess now. Paper bags nd nonsense al scattered everywhere. Have yet to finish up cleaning, I think I need more boxes. Haha.

School's tmr, new year's eve, I don't know what to expect. Maybe tougher stuff ?

Exchanged kisses. I keep falling for you.

Take my love through kisses al night.

2007-12-29T16:47:00.000+08:00

Two more days nd goodbye.

2007 was no doubt a difficult period adapting to changes everywhere. Having problems getting used to different thinkings, people nd school. Many ups nd downs to take into consideration. Those facades, heartbreaks nd amendments. Going through so much in such little time. Secrets not to be told. I'm not sure if I'm ready for th new year though.

Well oh well. Here's my resolutions for 2008 :

1. Stop cabbing to school. (At least to try ?)
2. Do tutorials nd attend lecs/tuts. (Many failed attempts last semester.)
3. Iron laundry nd buy more hangers.

4. Room revamp. (Oh yes please !)
5. Not to trust others too much. (It isn't my fault.)

6. Forgive but not to forget.
7. No vulgarities. (Go away.)

8. Save moolahs $.

9. NGWF. (Natalie's Gucci Wallet Fund)

10. Have an unforgetable eighteenth birthday. (Whatttt. 18 alr !?)

Anyway, party last night was alright, free flow of alchohols nd al. Screwdriver nd Carlsberg beer for me, I take light drinks. Loved Kumar nd his hilarious jokes, like woahh :D Girls belly dancing nd shaking their bom boms were hot stuff, th remix band was totally awesome.

Warren is my favourite hunk. -swoons.
He should be able to figure out why. Haha !

Had to cab home from Raffles Place, what a bummer. But we had an enjoyable time I guess. That's al.

.warrenyap says:
my eyes are tearing
.warrenyap says:
):
.warrenyap says:
can I go sleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep
.warrenyap says:
-SHAKES NATALIE'S SLEEVES

Hunn, you're darn cute please (:

Tell her what's worth.

2007-12-28T12:26:00.000+08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS !

This festive season's supposed to be filled with warmth nd love, but I don't really remember much to it except I've no doubt put on weight from al that sinful eating nd spent alot. Won't really elaborate into details.

So Warren stayed over last Saturday. Sunday's afternoon was lunch with his family nd relatives after church. Delicious big catch !

& dinner in th evening at Vivocity's Carnivore meat buffet. Ate to our hearts content, thnks to his mum for th treat (:

Last minute shopping on Christmas eve for his parents' gifts. Then had lunch at RedWhite&Pure. Unique taste.

Headed over to Onedegree15 for their aunt's christmas party on th yacht. Swaying constantly, sumptious buffet spread, love th crayfish nd tiger prawns (:

After which we went back for midnight mass ! My family was there as well. Heels were seriously killing me by then. Bth.

Fell asleep over at Warren's place, rushing to th supermarket in th late morning to get some groceries nd al. Went back to change, then cabbed over to his house for christmas lunch. Then over to my house for another christmas lunch with my family. (Yes, that's how crammed th plan is.) But at least, I didn't have to eat much at home.

Everything ended late, mum made me buy smth from Ausinno but to no avail, then Warren nd I caught 'I Am Legend' at Lido. I give it four out of five popcorns.

I'm contented to be able to spend christmas with my boyfriend. Really thnkful to him for taking care of me when I felt unwell. My apologies to Wieli, Jingxuan nd Shir for not being able to turn up last minute. Yet, there's this awful feeling of not being able to celebrate with close friends.

A tiff with mum on Wednesday evening so I didn't join them for dinner. Warren nd I went to Bedok Simpang to eat there instead. Haha.

Nd yesterday was my self-proclaimed instant-food-day. Lol. Boyfriend popped over as well. Maggi porridge, fried crabsticks, eggs nd noodles.

Anw, thnks for th presents nd texts this christmas. Much appreciated.

Going for some M18 crazy hats party ltr.

& not to forget,

HAPPY SEVENTEENTH BIRTHDAY, JASLYN ! (:

Melted candy canes.

2007-12-22T03:23:00.000+08:00

Can't really get to sleep tonight, though I'm pretty tired.

Have been unwell for th past three days till now, getting horrible headaches/migrains, nausea, bad cramps, cough nd cold. & just as th christmas occasion's about to near, I had to have my dayima last night as well. Perfect.

Anyway, met up with th juniors from fhorn section at Pizza Place on Wednesday afternoon. Didn't spend much time together, but it was nice catching up nd taking pictures.

Then off to find Chener at Paya Lebar. Silly tartsy didn't want to wait for me at Cityhall, so she was annoyed that I turned up late again. Lol. Uh went to find th lady to make my extensions again, nd down to Bugis for lunch. Haji Lane after, really lovely shophouses !

Took a few pictures here nd there. Many many prettyful stuffs, but not affordable yet ): She couldn't find a nice dress she wanted too.

So we trained to town, walked around th shops, but yet to no avail still. Had dinner at Far East instead. Tartsy really loves Subway.

I couldn't get up in time on Thursday. Daddy cooked frog leg porridge for us in th afternoon. Dinner was just fours pieces of nuggets. Went to meet Jonne at night to do him a favour, while I purchase my chocolates from th mall. But I was feeling awful nd lethargic. Seriously was on th verge of breaking down nd going to th doctor's but no. I'm a strong girl, aren't I ? (:

Warren isn't there for me those few days. Imagine th next two years not having him by my side, this is nothing compared. Forget about th previous post. I'm not supposed to think too much. Still, thnks for th concern girls.

& more christmas shopping today ! Mum, cass nd I headed to Bugis for lunch, had a very long distance walk to an eatery, only to realised they were closed for th day. Sheesh.

So we just ate at th noodle stall opposite nd off to settle some enquiries before going to town for shopping nd haircuts at Th Scene. I think we splurged, but wasn't me.

Zara's tops are really my liking :D Buy them for me ?

Then she went off to find a friend, so cass nd I went to check out Num. There really are alot of cute guys, but what airheads ! Couldn't even answer our questions. Had dinner at Xinwang HK Cafe again, at least with different people. Only had dimsums which I made her finish up, nd th bus ride home was a terrible one if you get what I mean ):

&& my dear boyfriend is back in S'pore yesterday evening. I'm so glad.

But this christmas is going to be th same like every other year, nothing special to it. He'll be so near yet so far. I don't have th mood to celebrate alr.

"Last christmas I gave you my heart, th very next day, you gave it away. This year, to save me from tears, I won't give it to anyone special."

Mistletoe, just get away. Go kiss th wall luh. -laughs

Sweet secret snowflake.

2007-12-19T00:42:00.000+08:00

If you wander off too far, my love will get you home.
If you follow the wrong star, my love will get you home.
If you ever find yourself, lost and all alone,
get back on your feet and think of me, my love will get you home.
Boy, my love will get you home.

If the bright lights blinds your eyes, my love will get you home.
If your troubles break your stride, my love will get you home.
If you ever find yourself, lost and all alone,
get back on your feet and think of me, my love will get you home.
Boy, my love will get you home.

If you ever feel ashamed, my love will get you home.
When there's only you to blame, my love will get you home.
If you ever find yourself, lost and all alone,
get back on your feet and think of me, my love will get you home.
Boy, my love will get you home.

If you ever find yourself, lost and all alone,
get back on your feet and think of me, my love will get you home.
Boy, my love will get you home,
Boy, my love will get you home.

Sometimes I tend to think too much. True love ? I'm not sure if I've found mine. Relationships happens nd ends easily, don't they ? I've been trying to. Or supposedly wanting to find th courage nd th right words to talk about this.

Exs from th past, they didn't know me well enough. I'm not certain if my boyfriend really understands me either. But I really want him to. They always say we are just puppy-love. I think we'll be able to last though.

Having young parents, my family brought me up to be a prim nd conservative girl. But perhaps, they didn't know of th consequences of misplacing trust nd accusing me when I was a rebellious teen. Those stuff I didn't like.

I admit I've changed. To a wild, different side of me that I don't even recognise anymore. At some point of time, I had th urge to hate myself. I can't blame those that influenced me, because I could have avoided them, but somehow I was still naive.

Although it has only been six mths or so, I'm serious about this relationship. No other guy has ever been so sweet nd patient with me before, tolerating al my nonsense nd giving in to me. No other guy has ever charmed me so much, that I can't bear to leave him aside. No other guy has ever showered me with love like his, everyday with no fail. Nd I don't think there'd be other guys next time that will be like this.

& I wish. I really wish, that you'd marry me one day. Mr Warren Yap.

Even if we've still got a very far future from now, nd we can't really tell. But if we'd both just keep our promises nd stay strong. I'm sure we'll make it. That's if of course, you still want to. Because for me, I won't stop loving you.

Yet, if ever you break your promised words nd let go. Tell me that I must take note. I might change perspective about guys nd become independent or just get a rich husband to support me. I'm not going to find another guy because I can't love him th same way I once did to someone else I used to hold so close.

Hush, stop th tears.

Imperfected features.

2007-12-19T00:18:00.000+08:00

Stocked up on my junkfood yesterday at th supermarket. Hehehheh.

Did my hair extensions, but not satisfied with th highlight extension service, although th lady was nice. Anyway, headed to Bugis after that to meet my sister nd cousin. Walked around Bugis street, new earrings, nd Chewy Junior yummy puffs to bring back home. Bought my christmas presents from Accesorize too. Went to find Syy at Eastpoint's LeatherArk as well. So we just talked for a short while. Splurged today ):

Yes, retail therapy works well. But not when I don't have that much cash to spend on uh. Oh yes, Warren called just now. Twice to note ! I'm so contented.

Well oh well, fhorn section outing ltr at Cityhall. Then off to shopping nd al with my tartsy, Chener (:

I miss you, hunn. Please come back soon.

Making a list nd checking it twice.

2007-12-17T15:23:00.000+08:00

Mr boyfriend is away for his Phuket trip with th famm for a week, how envious. I'm having th time to myself, but haven't really thought of what to do. Mum didn't remember that I've my break from school for two weeks, else I'd also be on th plane to Bangkok like we used to. Just had my leftover pasta, no other food. Maybe I'll carry on with house cleaning nd al, because I want to decorate it with christmas-sy (?) feel. Haha.

Monday
- Make pre-orders for christmas dinner.
- Buy drinks nd cake etc. (NTUC)
Tuesday

- Do highlight extensions.

- Christmas shopping ! (Bugis)

Wednesday
- Meet up with fhorn section (:

- Christmas shopping ! (Town)

- Find my girl, Shir (:

- Wrap gifts nd do cards.

Thursday

- Swimming

- Meet-ups (anyone ?)

- Hang up christmas decos.
Friday

- Haircut at Th Scene.

- Call Warren Yap (!)

Not only those, I'm making it a point to revise my notes from school nd find out more for th projs which would be due next year. My books are also waitingggg, still on PS. I love you.

Getting ready to go out of th house ltr ! :D

Dear Santa, I've been almost good.

2007-12-17T13:26:00.000+08:00

It's alr th two weeks holidays from school, oh christmas is coming ! (:

Last week's been a rather awful one, other than enjoyable shopping with my mum nd study sessions (or trying to at least, taking breaks in between) by myself or with Haoxiang, Denyse nd her boyfriend. Rainy weathers, taking th cab to school everyday for th tests, not knowing my exam venues, having to purchase a new calculator from th bookshop, forgetting that I left my umbrella in th bus as well. To an extent that I'm broke now. Despite al that, th papers were al screwed. Oh well. It's al over now, so I might as well not brood over it. Haha.

Last friday's afternoon was spent over at Warren's place with his famm. Cheers to th end of mid-semester papers ! Phew. Helped myself to steaming hot dim sums that I bought. Caught th movie 'Enchanted' at Great World City at night :D Thnks to his mum.

So like Warren resembles th character played as Prince Edward ('I knew that.'). Even his mum said so, lol. Nd he says that th dresses Princess Giselle wore were like th ones I always fancy, hahaha. Th movie's pretty interesting, sweet nd comical. One of th best fairytale movies I've taken a liking to.

Saturday morning was supposed to go for bizguides briefing/training. But somehow I wasn't feeling very well from last night's bad flu nd headaches. Afternoon with 4/8 classmates for gathering at Pasir Ris Park! Thnks to Jaslyn for my late present (I really like it, babe !). Chantel nd Carmen came back from Aussie too (: So great to see al of them.

So we had potluck, talks, self-timer shots nd games. I think Splat! is fun. Lol.

Took th bus out from there, nd headed to town with Syy, Carmen, Beefy nd Sheryl. About four hours at Fareast watching th graphic design competition, having dinner at th top level, then off to th streets to take christmas lightings !

& we even went to take our first prints together at Heeren, cute stuff (: That's about it.

Rushed home to do some last minute packing to stayover at Warren's for th night. He came to get me from th bus stop so we walked Vester back. Wanted to watch 'Th Hulk' but I felt unwell again nd we fell to sleep instead.

Hunn, thnks for taking care of me nd for giving me th lovely, gigantic pink flower. Haha.

Next morning, cabbed down to Vivocity with his mum. Three of us ate our share at Carl's Jnr, very filling. Then off to Onedegree15 at Sentosa to help out with 'Finding Christmas' carnival.

First time being there, it's really very nice, th yachts nd al. Even th washrooms were so classy, a plasma screen tv inside ? Haha. Anyway, I was to be dressed up as Santarina.

So here's my Santa Claus for th day. Hahaha !

Went around promoting about th carnival, giving out balloons nd candies to th little ones (You should see how greedy some of them could get !). It was really tiring but fun experience. Foam party at Constellation ballroom to end everything.

At th end of th day, I've got a pretty heart-shaped painted on my face, a balloon sculpture of a flower, a beanie balloon, free junkfood which taste so good, a shiny pink christmas hat, a really amountful pay for th day, nd an enjoyable time to remember.

I'm thankful. -smiles gleefully

A glass of lychee martini please.

2007-12-11T17:13:00.000+08:00

Dec 7th, Friday

School ended at 12.30pm. Had a date with Warren (TGIF !). Took th train, went to Peninsular Plaza to check out smth. Then a bus to Bugis, walking in th horrible rain.

Boyfriend bought me a dress I wanted to get ! (: It's really sweet.

Anyway, we headed to Parkway but awwww, th Kbox there was under renovation. What fuck, so depressing. Took th long bus ride back, ate buffet at this Japanese restaurant instead. Food's seriously above expectation though.

Went back to his house, stayed over. Helped him dye his hair, but not much colour shows. Hurr.

Dec 8th, Saturday

Accompanied Warren to fetch his new maid from th airport. Haha. Nd my Ripples flipflops that he gave me was beyond repair alr, th strap came out ! ):

Went to look for flipflops but to no avail. Still, he bought a silly bunny keychain for me. Hehehheh. It looks like you, oh boy !

Dinner at Xinwang HK Cafe.

& nine sugary cupcakes ! Pretty decos yo.

Off to night study with Cindy, Haoxiang nd others at Tampines Macs (again !). It was a last minute thing, was sort of tired. So like we couldn't take it after hours, took th first bus home at 5.45am. Lol.

Dec 9th, Sunday

Warren called up at 9am, so I didn't have proper rest, but good enough to last for th day. Helped his mum with th little ones' concert at th Jubilee Hall.

There's this place there called Raffles Creamery. Very nice ice-cream.

Say hello to 'Funky Monkey' ! Hahaha.

Emily's my favourite little girl :D -melts

& this little boy (who calls me Starly !) is effing cuteness.

Did have some fun with them, changing their outfits etc. Th concert was an interactive one, children al loved it. I'm so glad I was there. Reached home late.

I'd like to know what makes you smile.

2007-12-11T15:55:00.000+08:00

Apologies for not updating ! (:

Dec 1, Saturday
Cabbed to school at 10.30pm, met up with Jingyi nd we helped out for th Standard Chartered marathon which was held at th Padang th following day. Fifteen hours or so, of not being able to sleep a wink. Such an experience ! Haha.

Dec 3rd, Monday
Back to school on Monday, sleepyheads. Went studying at Macs with Cindy, had shaker fries ! Effing yum yumms :D

Dec 5th, Wednesday
It was our six mth ! ♥

& surprise delivery, Cottagepie breakfast nd nine prettyful roses. Love.

Natalie was not in th mood for school this day. Th weather was really awful, heavy downpours. So she skipped two tutorials nd a mock test. Sheesh.

But, Warren nd I went out for dinner, Fish&Co. at Parkway ! Really sumptious food uh ? (:

After that, I got to buy my black scarf from Dorothy Perkin's. Went to G2000 as well, tried th formal wear. Boyfriend was so extra, (hahaha) nd requested to try too. So there's my handsome boy.

Dec 6th, Thursday
Two hours of school, takeaways for lunch nd back home. Read notes nd ate at Macs again. Cabbed home after.

Another entry soon, I promise !

Th special feelings inside.

2007-12-05T11:53:00.000+08:00

HAPPY SIX MTHS, MY BOY <3

We've still got many many more moments to share, to love nd to hold.

xoxos.

Just a little time.

2007-12-01T13:07:00.000+08:00

Two hours of school on Thursday. Then to Sugarloaf for our lunch together (:

Sherry triffle is really sweet. Anyway, bought for Warren th frutti tart too. Haha.

So like we went to Escape themepark in th afternoon. Shining nd Faliq came to join us as well :D Go kart nd invertor were our favourite ! Haunted house was quite silly. But th downside was that pirate ship nd revolter were under maintanence that day. Took tonns of pictures after that.

Dinner at LerkThai, had green curry chicken.

Pasar malam was alright, ramly burgers were so very tempting. Haha. Then boyfriend stayed over, we were so tired.

Missed out on morning lecture, so went for breakfast at YaKun.

Couldn't even understand Business Accounting ): Four of us went to Ikea after school. Meatballs, chicken wing nd daim cake for lunch :D

Was so funny when Soon Wee drank th salted water we got for him. Hahaha. It seriously tasted awful.

& we walked around th different sections to play with those stuffs (: lightings are really such beauty.

Evening was class bbq at pasir ris park. It's been very windy nd cold lately.

Everything was alright I suppose, except that carrying ice by myself was a heavy burden (about 7.5kg), a silly person who made me so annoyed, but th dog is such an adorable toy.

& I'm very glad for th sushi treat from th lady. Haha. Pictures shall do th talking then.

Two rock candies.

2007-11-28T20:52:00.000+08:00

I took a VolksW cab to church on Sunday :D

Accompanied my mum to Tampines mall after dinner. This is how much she is willing to advertise for Aussino ! Hahaha.

I've got new quilt covers for my bed, see those prettyful designs (:

& that, is for my laundry, clothes that I've yet to iron nd hang up. Haha.

Went to get an mc for Monday before lecture. Had a serious headache on th way to school. Gave Huiying her little gift :D I think it's sweet enough uh.

Dinner nd dessert with Cindy nd Chener at Tampines mall after classes.

Lunch at Sugarloaf yesterday, had beef lasagne. Th portion was too much though. Rushed back for tutorial after that, assignment test was alright. Met up with Cindy at BusinessPark for xinfu fried rice. Lol.

Submitted th mc, then we headed to Whitesands' Macs for ice-cream. Did my tutorial homework there. Off to Warren's place at about 10pm, watched 'Tenacious D' nd cabbed home at 6.30am.

Got called up today for proj meeting in th morning, but I couldn't rush there in time. Tutorials were th usual, stayed back till 7pm to continue with proj for tmr. Took th bus back with Xinying nd Meixin. Takeaways for dinner. It's not my day for donuts, just got smashed.

Tis th season to be sexy.

2007-11-25T16:02:00.000+08:00

HAPPY SEVENTEENTH BIRTHDAY, HUIYING !

Going for evening mass ltr with my family in about an hour's time (:

Warren called me up this morning when he embarked from th cruise ! But silly me was still trying to sleep so I refused to talk much. Ehehehhehs. He's alr at Malacca now with his famm.

Anyway, I'll update about yesterday. Cabbed down to Aranda to meet my mum for lunch with her exco members from th union. Coffee in th afternoon as well.

Then went back home before taking th train with my sister, cousin nd mum to town. Shopped at Robinsons, got my lingeries from La senza nd Calvin Klein :D I'm so into th new colours, there's like hot pink too ! Hahaha. A must to get more.

Bought daddy nd grandpa their christmas gifts as well, then had some gift wrapping service. Walked over to Paragon, hadn't been there for quite a while. Bought new stuffs from Aussino ! Mummy loves their stuff, like seriously. Haha.

Over to Cine for dinner at Pastamania. Met into Kim there, she looks so pretty (:

After that, took th express bus back home. We waited like effing long luh, tiring day. Spent like alot. That's al.

Doodle mood.

2007-11-23T21:35:00.000+08:00

Th school has given me my first warning letter, another th next week or so.

Yesterday's project meeting was alright. My secret groceries shopping with Warren after that was postponed nd changed to a trip to Ikea instead :D

We took th shuttle bus down. Yes, it was my first time on those free bus rides there. Haha. & Ikea's really an interesting place to go to ! Th furnitures looks so prettyful nd al.

Look at my handsome boy ! Irresistable, I love (:

So like we settled for dinner at th cafe/restaurant. Thnks to him for th treat ! Th food is really delicious, especially th meatballs nd chicken wings ! Haha. Anyway, we bought Vester's (his dog) early christmas gift too. Think he does likes it alot because it's really cute luh :D

Went over his house to watch 'My Super Ex-girlfriend' which was hilarious shit nd sort of retarhded. Hahaha. Cabbed home after that.

Cramps was effing pain. Missed out both lectures for today, didn't get to go school nor th briefing. Warren bought me chicken cutlet noodles for lunch. Spent little quality time together. He'll be away on cruise till Sunday, nd then another trip to Malacca till Monday ):

Chener nd Cindy were waiting for me to have dinner supposedly. But I was feeling lethargic nd awkward. Felt bad not turning up last minute though, sorry ! Mondays' dinner alright.

I'll miss him so very much yet again.

Let's scream it out.

2007-11-21T20:08:00.000+08:00

Five mini eclairs, two mini kueh lapis, a bite-size Mrs field's brownie, three pieces of cheese ruffles, a fruitti cheese nd a egg&ham pastries from Fourleaves.

That's what I munched on today (:

Tutorials were a killer ! I cabbed down to school for I-don't-know-how-many-times-alr. Anyway, we didn't even started our business projects. Hahaha. & I can't stand rainy seasons.

Attempting for another project meeting tmr afternoon. Then off for my secret groceries shopping with Warren in th evening ! I so can't wait for a hug :D

& before I end,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SUSAN, BABE !

Empty heart nd her thoughts.

2007-11-21T02:50:00.000+08:00

It's early morning, I've gotten up from evening nap.

I missed th first lecture, as expected. Business Statistics tutorial was alright, bought board games at th pushcart. Nd tmr at 12pm, we'll be having our project meeting for Market Fundamentals. Assignments are sure to keep me busy.

Sometimes it's better to hide to myself. & just sometimes, I'd try to ignore.

But it's hard.

Don't hate me, love.

Holding on.

2007-11-20T06:51:00.000+08:00

Silly me forgot that there wasn't tutorial on Monday morning. So I rushed for a cab down to school, sheesh ! Forgot about bringing my pencil case as well, so I had to drop by th bookshop. Anyway, Jingyi was also in school early so I had lunch with them. It wasn't totally a horrible day afterall :D

Th list for th GL camp was alr on th bulletin board, some of us got through, others unexpectedly not inside. I'm still contemplating though. -frowns

Lecture, bought my spongebob play cards from th pushcart, nd CDS till evening. My two other project mates are nice people I guess. But th subject is still as boring alright, every week we end classes early. Lol. Chener nd Cindy were busy so dinner was cancelled. Takeaways from KFC, buddy meal yo !

& I was so surprised to see what my sister did for me. Sweet stuff (:

Says, "HAPPY BELATED 17TH BIRTHDAY ! Hope you like your new earring stand ! HAHAHA ! xoxo, cassandra".

Then went out to meet Warren nd his friends, Shining nd Faliq. Such fun people to hang out with :D Why don't I have friends like that now ! Haha.

So like we dined at Xinwang HK Cafe at Whitesands. Then walked to th park, took pictures nd al. Back at home, mum had pastries she brought back for me.

It was 4.40am just now.
I couldn't fall back to sleep so I stayed up.

Maybe I'll be able to be on time for lecture ltr at 9am ! Hahaha. Doing tutorials that I don't understand is such a chore, so is blogging (when I just don't seem to upload pictures).

But of course, wait nd see, I might just get th hang of it al pretty soon (:

Jingle bells ahead.

2007-11-18T23:59:00.000+08:00

HAPPY FIFTEENTH BIRTHDAY, CASSANDRA !

It was my sister's birthday yesterday, bought her a junk tee nd I'm glad it looks nice on her (:

Warren came over to my house in th afternoon while I got ready to go out, then we left for whitesands to have lunch together. I was alr running late to meet my kor at town, so I left abruptly after my dimsum. (Sorry my boy ! Haha.)

Kor was with his other friends as well. So we walked around FEP, nd I bought myself a dress from Max&More. Then we ate at a stall on th top level (never eaten there before except th chicken rice shop). They couldn't catch up with me shortly after, nd I thought they were hiding away hahaha. Walked off to Heeren by myself, bought those pretty heels I was eyeing for ! :D

Then to Takashimaya, to see my favourite girl at work ! She's so busy busy, right Shir ? (:

Met up with my kor nd his friends again at Wisma, went Topshop nd Dorothy Perkins, but nth much. Maybe I'll wait for th sales ? Haha. Anyway, I left for basement shops so they yet again couldn't find me nd went off for supper lollll. Oh wells.

Shir ended her work alr so we went to take pictures with th beautiful christmas lightings ! Talks nd al, bought roadside ice-creams nd Macs fries for th long bus trip back home. So old school yo.

On Sunday afternoon, went with Warren nd his mum for church. His brother was having his confirmation, which reminds me that my sister stopped her classes ): Or else she would be there as well. So like most of th time I was trying to snap pictures for them. Hahaha. Saw a few familiar faces too.

Then we left for town to catch a movie at Cine, 'Th Game Plan'. Had dinner at Kobayashi before that. Then mum nd cas came to find me for my card, before we went to other malls. Killer heels, I was enduring like fuck ):

Warren was patient enough to tolerate my nonsense that day (love !). He even brought me around to look for flats, but I was too fussy. But he still just got me Ripples flipflops, haha.

So we were rushing back to catch our movie. After which we went to take christmas lightings again ! I still want more, more, more.

& we missed th last bus back because of th inefficient Macs service that night. Took th express bus back instead.

A gleaming box of love notes.

2007-11-16T02:05:00.000+08:00

Glad that boyfriend nd I got through al those stuff alr. We're alright now (: Went down to Whitesands on Wednesday at 7.15am to have early breakfast with him at Macs. Yum yumms :D

& I'm thinking of starting NFF. But I've been cabbing alot recently ! ): Even twice on Thursday, just to get into school on time (for only 2 hours of lesson), nd rushing back home from Warren's place (after midnight). Such a spoiler. Furthermore, I've been spending alot on food. Hahaha. Which is why I suppose I've also grown fatter uh ? ):

Still, Thursday was enjoyable despite cash outflow. Finally got to attend Marketing Fundamentals tutorial.

Tutor : Who is Natalie ?
Me : Here. -raised hand
Tutor : You didn't have MC for th last week right ?
Me : No.
Tutor : So, this is your first tutorial ? -smile
Me : Haha yeah.
Tutor : Hmm. It's okay, that's alright.

Tutor : So have you selected your course ?
Me : Ya.
Tutor : What did you choose ?
Me : Urh, marketing. -forced smile
Tutor : Marketing uh ! Haha. -smile

After that, we went to see th lecturers regarding th selections for next year. So much confusement nd al, not knowing if it's wrong or right, yet I made a change in th end.

Business, Marketing, then Logistics. (I'm having cognitive behaviour though.)

Anyway, we had lunch at Mensa for fish&chips. So much fun sharing nd laughing together (:

Shir called at th moment of time when I was heading out of school by myself ! So I met her at Tampines interchange. Sat down at Macs having our talks while th girl had her fries. We were even talking at th open atrium till evening.

Took pictures at in th girls' washroom again, haha. Was getting late so she had to head home alr. I bought KFC (buddy meal !) for dinner with Warren, because I was hungry :D

& TGIF ! Cabbed to school for lecture with them, before looking around at th booths for CCN day. Henna was pretty nice nd cheap. Food selling everywhere were almost 0f th same varieties. Xinying bought me a heart-shaped balloon sculpture at th end of everything (:

Had a Funding Seminar lecture to attend for my CDS. Sort of awkward finding a seat nd having people looking over. Two hours of focusing on what was going on, resulting in backaches. Lollll. Refreshments after that, so Cindy nd Chener came to find me.

We took th bus to Downtown to go swimming. Changed nd al before that. But chener was so funny, I found out she didn't know how to swim ! & we looked very wrong holding each other in th pool. Hahaha. After two hours or so, we went to have Subway for dinner. Takeaways for hunn too.

Thnks my favourite girl, for being there for me nd making me realise so much.
& tartsy nd girlfriend ! More swimming nd dinner to come ? (:

Even th best fall down sometimes.

2007-11-13T22:51:00.000+08:00

I'm not being over sensitive. Really.
Maybe it's just th stress nd mood swings.

I don't know.
Just. Sorry, it's my wrong.

He says they need to talk.

She says ?

Pretending we had what it takes.

2007-11-13T20:48:00.000+08:00

Hello.

I dislike Mondays because school ends at 6pm. But I got to meet Chener nd Cindy for dinner at Tampines mall. Caught up with our girl talks. We've even made plans for jogging nd swimming too :D

On a random note. My mum can be pretty annoying at times.

School ? I haven't been attending any Business Statistics lectures. (Like wtf.) Guangming told me Samuel has a guy stalker (!), which we apparently thought was his friend. Hahaha. & ITAS foodcourt has good yong tau fu, we had it for lunch today.

Tutor doesn't like me, I don't like her anyway. But th group assignment was sort of interesting. We managed to rush through th answers last minute. Turned out a mess haha.

Business park with Cindy again after that. She's taken a major liking for my dad's cooking alr, especially th fried rice. Lollll. I admit she makes me glad (:

So we stayed on till late evening, took th crowded bus back home. Had to rush home to submit my streaming selections (sorry girlfriend !). Th three different courses for next year. Samuel nd I were discussing it again on msn just now. Yes, I chose Marketing as my first choice, over Business nd Logistics.

I'm still contemplating though. Just because I was thinking of HR & Tourism electives for Business or maybe future high paying jobs for Logistics. But Marketing seems exciting with advertising nd th branding hub.

My brain can seriously go mad.

Island life, love it.

2007-11-10T00:04:00.000+08:00

"p.s. I was just kidding about you having to bring me here there everywhere. haha, I kind of just wanna see you on that day.. that'll really make me uber happy. (: truly babe, really."

"p.s.s. I love you, with all my heart. I'd never leave you, no matter what. no matter who gets in the way, I'll fight for you, till death."

"p.s.s.s. I know its easier said than done, but I won't give up. I'll never give up on you, on us, on everything we've been through. never. because my heart for you is true, and its yours. wo ai ni natalie erika lai."

Another lecture missing out again yesterday morning. Bought th minis from Cottage pie's (: Pleasantly nice. Maybe soon enough I'd be a frequent customer. Haha. Trained down from Tampines to Lavender after school to find hunn nd his famm.

So off we headed to Expo book sales, which I really like. I bought four books for myself ! Hahaha. There were also car drifting events just outside at th carpark. Seriously cool yo.

Next was Vivocity, only to realise that there weren't anymore good seatings for th movies. But it was a pretty good thing too ? Because we headed to Sentosa ! :D Oh my goodness. Th weather was blazing hot nd al till late evening yanno ? Such a good day for tanning ): I've been waiting. (Jaslynnnn.)

Anw. We took plentiful of snapshots there. Ps. I got to ride on th cable car (Warren : Kappikar.) ! Omg, th last time I went on a cable car was aeons ago (:

Next was th 'Carlsberg Sky Tower' which was sort of waste of money for spinning up 50 levels high for nice viewing. Lol.

'Sky Rider' was much more interesting. If only sentosa had snow nd skis aye ? Haha.

We ended up at Siloso beach, but th musical performance for 'Songs of Th Sea' was too crowded, so we took th tram towards Rasa Singapura.

Anw, dinner was buffet style at Rasa. Sumptious foodspread ! :D Yummy yums, ate to our hearts content. Nd his famm gave him a surprise for a sweet brownie cake with ice-cream for his birthday in th last minute. Th thought that counts uh.

This was a nice Saturday for a change, al thnks to them (: Goodbye Imbiah Lookout ! I'll come back for more cable car rides, Underwater World, my tanning at Siloso beach, chillouts at Cafe Del Mar (oh-so-prettyyyy) nd dining at Th Jewel box.

HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY WARREN YAP !

I LOVE YOU BOYFRIEND.

Upside down.

2007-11-08T11:55:00.000+08:00

Tuesday was terrible because I skipped two lectures nd only attended afternoon's tutorial for Business Statistics. Met hunn at Whitesands because he said he wanted to accompany me (:

Yes, so we dined at TCC having Beef Daube, Dory Fillet nd Muddy Mud Pie. Nice ambience. Th service there is pretty good too, I like th waitress because she communicates well with me. Hahaha.

Did some lecture notes, it wasn't even an hour, but hunn was alr quite annoyed. Why ! ): I merely was trying to focus on what I was doing nd finish up fast. But he just didn't understand nd thought I meant to ignore him. Oh wells. Then we left for his house, went home at around 1am.

Macroeconomics nd Business Acc tutorials yesterday. Bought Cottage Pie's mini chicken pies for them ! Takeaways for dinner (: I love dad's Hor Fun.

& I've bought my bikini from Sheer Romance. Haha. Th sales girl at th shop even remembered me, how embarrassing. Anw, I've got another one to get as soon as I save up again. Now's th time for Natalie to make do with one-meal-a-day. Lollll.

Tanning this afternoon with Jaslyn is cancelled last minute, because it rained in th morning ): KTV session nd dinner is also cancelled. & I don't think I've any other plans for today. Perhaps ltr ?

Happy Deepavali yo.

Moving on.

2007-11-06T06:09:00.000+08:00

Boyfriend's back from his Genting trip ! Had so much to tell me about it.

Anw. It was our fifth mth yesterday (: Had school till late in th afternoon. But he made me a delicious serving of pasta for my dinner at his place ! :D

& I hope he like his gifts (he'd better be). As well as I like that huge, huggable teddy bear he gave to me. Hahaha.

Warren Yap Wenying, you're mine.

Sweet limelight.

2007-11-03T16:16:00.000+08:00

A pretty rose, a little card, nd my favourite heart-diamante silver ring. Just smth to give him before he left :D

Didn't attend Marketing Fundamentals lecture yesterday. Spent th time in Macs, having my breakfast by myself lollll. Business Acc lecture was quite difficult to catch up with as well ):

Rushed back home before meeting up with Huiying at th station. Trained to City Hall, walked around Marina Square nd Suntec.

Went down to Bugis after, chilled at Tom's Palette for yummy ice-creams (friendly service too !), then to find th others. Celebrated Jiawei's 22nd birthday !

I just love Swensen's ice-cream cakes. Hahaha.

& this is our prettyful gift to him, self-wrapped nd al. Took us some time to find it at th malls. Haha.

Ps. Warren is coming back tmr ! Natalie is waiting for her hug (:

Not in th mood.

2007-11-01T12:42:00.000+08:00

Skipped late morning's tutorial for Market Fundamentals. I shall busy myself with housework now. Going to accompany hunn to Yishun ltr. Why so far uh, haha.

Mr boyfriend's going to Genting for 3 days. Being such a nice girlfriend, I'm not making a fuss out of it.

Don't worry. I'll miss you my boy, just not that much (:

Little magic trinklets.

2007-10-29T23:36:00.000+08:00

Monday blues. Met Chener after our lessons ended, so we had dinner at Tampines mall. I like having girl talks with her too ! Anw, Cindy nd Fai abang was there having their dinner as well ! (:

So after tartsy went off, we took some random shots together.

This was at th atrium's playground. Hahaha.

I love this picture, I have voluminous hair ! Sweet stuff.

But aww, girlfriend ain't smiling.

She says she prefers this picture instead.

Nd I got to take with my abang !

Silly purple chair. But we so cool yo.

Fai showed us some recording they played, it's seriously dope (;

& oh, thnks for walking with me home !

Secret wishes.

2007-10-25T09:14:00.000+08:00

Had my chalet from 14th to 18th (: Al thnks to my dear mum ! Haha. I had everything planned pretty well alr yanno ! But how unfortunate, I had th girl stuff on th very first day. Rarhs.

So th first three days were boring, with no swimming for me. Hunn nd I spent time together most of th time instead, meeting after our work nd school, decorating both rooms, preparing items for bbq, watching dvds nd eating takeaways etc.

Upsetting stuff th night before th bbq though.

Th tears nd heartbreak. Hunn, please don't make things this way again alright ?

I couldn't really sleep that night, woke up at 4.30am to busy myself. But anw, th day for bbq celebration was absolutely enjoyable.

My sweet tartsy (Chener) nd girlfriend (Cindy) were th first two girls to arrive ! Haha. Took pictures nd al.

I can often rely on her when I need someone to talk to nd laugh with (:

As for her, she makes an ultimate partner ! Don't get deceived, she's not like that tall. Lol.

Agnes nd Jeanette were th second pair to reach th chalet. Followed by Kim, Felchy, Jayne nd Shir ! Th nine of us :D

Bbq food was great, thnks to my boy for being th chef that night ! Dad's marinated chicken wings nd sambal fish was yummy as well. But who can resist such nice japanese sushi from Sakae ? Hahaha.

Another group shot, while waiting for Jaslyn, Geraldine nd Ying to come.

Nd finally when everyone was there, it was time for Barcardi nd Alize drinks ! :D

Oh yes, mum got me my gift that night. Th birthday cake that I wanted badly.

Cheers to my Swensen's ice-cream cake, such love !

Nice uh ? It's 2kg, with three different flavours of ice-cream inside ! Many many strawberries al over too.

So then, we helped to get th candles lighted.

With my dear mum, in her not-very-appropriate style, like what she said. Lol.

& & my favourite boy !

Mr boyfriend nd me. Credits to Kim aye ? (:

To end that day with a lovely shot. Thnks to each nd everyone of them for making effort to celebrate with me on th 17th.

Sort of breakfast in bed for sleepy lover. Jaslyn, Geraldine nd Ying left in th early morning, so I went to grab Macs for both of us.

These were th carriers hunn nd I had to lug from th chalet al th way out to th taxi stand when we checked out, just th both of us. Gosh ! Haha.

So seventeen.

2007-10-24T07:54:00.000+08:00

HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY NATALIE !

& thnks to everyone who wished me (: be it by texting, in school, friendster, facebook or outside, I really appreciate it !

& HAPPY 17TH TO XINYING !

My twinny, who shares th very same birthdate as me. How interesting yo !

Hearts out.

2007-10-23T14:00:00.000+08:00

Xm Asia was an enjoyable experience working with such nice people :D Th past 5 weeks were of fun having lunch together, laughing at silly stuff, making funny editings nd often sitting behind our laptops with nothing much to do. Haha.

Last Friday being th last day of work for us, we had lunch at Pizzahut at Suntec, nice treat from Jiawei. Yum yumms ! But I didn't have th time to make farewell gifts ): only manage to give Benson nd Jiawei their choc ferreros nd Susan a daisy flower. Lol.

So anw, we went around taking pictures with others.

Dinner time, off we went to Azabu Sabo restaurant at Marina Square. This time it was Benson's treat ! Th food was so appealing yanno, but I only had salad because I had heineken for tgif. But our ice-cream dessert was fab ! Haha.

Huiying had to go off after that, so th five of us went out to th open area to take some views.

Walked over to th Esplanade, then down to Clarke Quay, nd ended up at Boat Quay, where al th pubs nd bars were located at. Went into Eskibar for a drink (:

Hello you.

2007-10-22T22:46:00.000+08:00

In th box of love, hercrimsonjewel.blogspot.com

I'm back to blogging again, miss me anyone ? (: Well anw, many snapshots to upload in th next post or so. Don't miss it !